Miraculous ‘normal’ pregnancy after a long wait!!!

Miraculous ‘normal’ pregnancy after a long wait!!!

I got married in Aug 2013, but never got to see positive pregnancy test. NEVER! I won’t say I was greatly disappointed as I was also waiting for few things between me and husband to settle down slowly and it took a while. Once things became alright everyone started expecting and wherever we went we got plenty of advice and tips. We were hesitant to take Sunday classes due to the initial issues between us, but somehow for the past two years we have been teaching little children every Sunday.

In the meantime, we tried multiple doctors (no big treatments) and were bored with the same repetitive scans and tests, which reported no issues as such. The last set of scans taken in 2017 reported I had little harmless cysts and they would take time to resolve and the doctor would stop even the few tablets I had to take on 5 days at the start of my cycle. I would have to be honest here. My cycle – can vary from 26 days to 60 days too. You can hardly guess what my fertile days are, including doctors. And there were many times when I had trouble with egg rupturing, they would just grow and the doctor would suggest again to skip that particular cycle or two to start all over again from the scratch. And you can easily guess how my mood was, all through every pelvic scan. I went for HSG (tube) test in May 2017, sincerely speaking, because of all the prayers of my prayer buddies I got enough strength to undergo the test and yes, it was painful but I expected the worst when I went, and it didn’t seem so worse as I expected it to be. Then my doctor said she would start with IUI (artificial insemination) process from the next cycle as there were no blocks detected in the tube test. Well, as always, I asked few more months to avoid IUI, but my husband was very rigid this time to start with IUI as per the doctor’s suggestion. Though I didn’t like his idea, I also didn’t like my idea of prolonging the wait as I did for more than 3.5 years. I was very relaxed after the tube test as anyways we were going to face all the harsh treatments. I had extended stays at work both on the weekdays and also on weekends supporting my team through their weekend support and that includes night support as well. I am a kind of person who is always early to work and late to bed. I hardly remember the days we were together. We even went for long drives assuming we would have to stay home once the treatment starts. Triples at times! Lot of jerks and road bumps crossed!

On June 26, 2017 we went to the Scripture Union campsite as Sundays school teachers for a retreat program, and I went there along with my heavy laptop bag as usual to assist my team during their holiday support. I got to work when the church friends had games to play. But during the worship session, as I was encouraged by a senior Sunday school teacher, I fully trusted in the Lord and kept on repeating ‘Karthar enakkai yaavaiyum seidhu mudipaar’ song written after Psalm 138:8.

After returning home after a long tiring day, I realized it was more than 50 days and I was not too much surprised with it as my cycle, as I told earlier, can go up to 60+ days as well. Then I thought of doing pregnancy test just for formality. I am sure I have done only close to 10 UPT all through the past 3.5 years. I have never seen two pink lines which many couples long to see. This time unusually I saw two pink lines for the very first time in my kit. I could hardly realize how I could interpret that test result. Though I have forwarded others, one of my friends’ testimony and the long list of pregnancy promises, I never confessed them at least once. I know many were praying for me, but I was not serious to pray about a baby. I showed my UPT kit to my husband and we were not able to believe that we were expecting. We thought of getting it confirmed by the doctor the next day. Since my doctor was busy on that day with emergency deliveries, we had to wait. I underwent some scan again and I was laying down there and thinking what the technician would tell me after seeing the result. I have to be honest that I expected her to yell at me “Hey you said you had a positive result, but there is nothing in here.” But I heard her saying, “Can you see here?” I was so scared to see what she was about to show me, then, she showed me the baby’s heartbeat, only by that time I could believe that I was pregnant for the very first time in my life. A wait close to 3.5 years! (my 4th wedding anniversary was on August 22 and I didn’t want to celebrate it without the bundle of joy we usually expect every passing month) With that heartbeat readings I was waiting for the doctor to return. Once my turn has come, when the attender called me to check my weight, the doctor said, “no, she is not pregnant, she has come here for the regular check-up” assuming I have gone there for IUI preparation. When the attender handed her the reading my doctor could not react for a while until she said, “this is excellent!” She even confirmed with me saying, “this is a normal pregnancy with no treatment (not even a single tablet) this month!” and I said “Yes” to her, but deep inside my heart, I was crying out, that this is not a normal pregnancy as the medical world would say, but 100% miraculous pregnancy which only our God made it possible. He is the one who calls out everything out of nothing. I even fell into temptation one Saturday, and so I can’t claim even a single credit for why He has blessed us. He has blessed us because of who He is! And not because of who we are!

My prayer buddies at office prayed for me. Thanks a lot guys for all your prayers! Whenever my office housekeeping staffs saw my pregnancy bump they guided me so much; they warned me when they saw me sitting in a wrong posture. One of my office colleagues even filled my water bottle every time she saw my empty or half-filled water bottle. I have got so much love and support from my family and friends! Everything meant a lot to me. We had to take countless number of cabs from the day we knew I was pregnant until after the delivery! God has kept us and the little one inside so safe, in spite of all the rides. With His grace I could go to work until I completed 9 months.
The scans showed the due date to be Feb 12, 2018. It was such a bitter month for us, because in 2002 on Feb 22nd my in-laws lost their daughter when she was just 22. I truly believe God has restored the loss and proved that He has not forgotten us. The month which was so far so bitter for us, is the month of miracle for us now.

Yes, on Feb 7, 2018, early in the morning I told God that I could not wait any longer to deliver the baby as it was way too much to bear. The countless trips to the washroom and the weight of the belly and the constant push I had in my bladder made me so tired for the last few weeks. Exactly on the same day it started with mild bloody show by 7 AM IST. We went for a check-up and was told that the delivery might come on the same day, or several days later!! But after 2:30 PM IST I started having severe labor pains.  By 6 PM IST they started preparing me for the delivery and within 2.5 hours we received our little princess!!! Between 6 PM and 8:30 PM the help I got from the technicians, doctor, housekeeping staffs inside the labor room was more than a miracle!!! The Lord has really shown me high favour in their eyes. Some even reminded me to call out to God when I had unbearable pain! I kept on reciting some choruses, Bible verses and short prayers to God and He has beautifully carried me through it all!!! The first kiss of my little one on my cheeks brought in so much tears in my eyes!!! It was all God & God who made that moment possible in my life!!! Oh how much I need to be thankful to Him!!!

Outside the labor room, many were praying for me and especially my husband said prayers which we have drafted from reading many books and booklets, promise verses for short labor, etc,… and I believe God heard all the prayers everyone said!!!
Though I was 30+ years old and I had a normal delivery! Can you believe it? Many said that a woman above this age would not have normal delivery, even if she does she would have labor pain for long hours as her bones would have become so rigid. And as I work in IT and in front of laptop for extended hours, and do not have much house chores done as often as I should be, the labor would be tough and most likely it was going to be a caesarean delivery! I am always on the lean side and hence I was also very much afraid of how I was going to bear the pain, but my God who has started it had let me come out the labor room with victory for His glory, even though my baby’s heart rate went below 100 twice when she was trying to come out since her head was little big to pass through easily!!!

We named our little cutie pie ‘Janice Jane’. Janice means ‘the Lord has been gracious’ and Jane is the feminine name of ‘John’. Her loving smiles, magic working hands, blinks of her eyes and what not, all about her bring so much joy in our hearts and tears in our eyes! We believe that she would grow in wisdom, God’s grace and find favor in the eyes of people!
As per Psalm113:9, The Lord gives a barren woman a home; making her a joyous mother of children.
Sorry for making this testimony a lengthy one, but I could write forever when I think of His hand in this entire pregnancy journey. I hope this would encourage others who are going through a path of long wait. I pray that the Lord would see your tears (He does it already) and would bless you with a baby and make you a testimony!! God bless you!!!!

 (This testimony is written by an IT Professional who is working for an MNC, based out of Chennai, India.  If you want her to pray and encourage you with the Promise verses that she got for her pregnancy term, please write to prayer@ccf.org.in and will be shared with her with confidentiality)

Are You Bi-Polar?

Two days back, i started soon from my office and I was walking towards the main gate to catch the bus. I felt like God insisting me that I would be getting a bus in five minutes, but in my thought, I was thinking, “Where would the bus come at this time? Let me wait for 5 minutes and book a cab to my house”. I didn’t trust the inner voice and had my own execution plan. But, as insisted, I got my bus in 5 minutes while waiting. Similarly, sometimes, we act ‘bipolar’ when it comes to our faith. While I was reading Matthew Chapter 16, I was stuck with this verse for a long time. Christ asks His disciples in verse 15 that,

“But what about you?” he asked. “Who do you say I am?”

I was thinking, If Christ would be asking the same question to me today, what would I answer? The answer to this question reveals our spiritual condition and eternal destiny. Christ didn’t ask this question to raise identity crisis or curiosity as to what would other people think about Him. Instead, His question forced the disciples to have to grapple with their own beliefs concerning Him.

“Faith that is untested is no faith at all.” Some would have head knowledge but that is not going to help them spiritually. When it comes to responding such a question as Peter did in verse 16,

Simon Peter answered, “You are the Messiah, the Son of the living God.”

We will come to know that our faith is well-founded in Christ.  Jesus’ affirmation to his response was favorable for Peter which we can see in the verse 17,

Jesus replied, “Blessed are you, Simon son of Jonah, for this was not revealed to you by flesh and blood, but by my Father in heaven. 18 And I tell you that you are Peter, and on this rock I will build my church, and the gates of Hades will not overcome it.

But, did Peter really understand who Jesus was? This salty-tongued, former sailor, after the interaction was reproved by Christ that Peter was thinking, talking and acting like devil himself from verses 21-23,

From that time on Jesus began to explain to his disciples that he must go to Jerusalem and suffer many things at the hands of the elders, the chief priests and the teachers of the law, and that he must be killed and on the third day be raised to life. Peter took him aside and began to rebuke him. “Never, Lord!” he said. “This shall never happen to you!” Jesus turned and said to Peter, “Get behind me, Satan! You are a stumbling block to me; you do not have in mind the concerns of God, but merely human concerns.”

Even Peter forsook Jesus three times as predicted by Jesus. I am not sure what would I have done if I was in Peter’s shoes. Sometimes, our faith is bi-polar.

We also can see Elijah, who called down fire from heaven and disposed 850 false prophets and praying for rain, was running from a wicked woman.  Like Elijah, one minute we’re calling down fire from Heaven and the next minute sitting down under a juniper tree, feeling all alone and wishing we were dead (I Kings 18:1-19:4). He was sitting under the Juniper tree wishing he were dead.  Unbelievable right! When I was reading about Elijah in the Bible, I was so hard on him – how can he behave like this? Where did his faith go? But, don’t be so hard on him – we often are just like him.

One minute we’re so close to Heaven that we could almost reach out and touch God; the next minute we’re down-in-the-dumps, mournfully singing “Nobody knows the trouble I’ve seen.” And remember, if we are not careful, we will act the same way. This is how our faith remains sometimes – bi-polar. We often live by sight and not faith –we try to attempt things which can be done only from our strength and forget that in our weakness He is our strength. Hence, we are afraid to sign on the dotted line of a blank sheet of paper and leave the blanks up to God to fill in. We are afraid what He might put there.

Sometimes, we like Peter and Elijah, might be on the top of spirituality and fall the next second when we are asked to follow Him, without knowing where we need to go.

But, it need not be that way, IF we’ll remember to “cast down our imaginations and anything that exalts itself against the knowledge of God by bringing every thought into obedience of Christ” (II Cor. 10:5).  Or, another way to say it is “Refusing to dwell on suspicions and speculations by making sure nothing blots out God’s Face from view as I lasso every wayward thought and bring it under Jesus’ Lordship.”

Ups-and-downs.  Highs and lows.  Delights and despair – Such is so often our rollercoaster ride of faith.  That’s why we must daily spend time alone with the Savior, “renewing our minds” (Rom. 12:2) by “studying to show ourselves approved unto God” (II Tim. 2:15) as we “hide His Word in our hearts” (Ps. 119:11).  Help us, O Lord.

Can you say ‘God is good’ as Asaph did in Psalm 73:1, even though you’re about ready to cave into the pressure?  Never forget the three most important words in the Bible are “God loves you” (John 3:16), “God is faithful” (1 Corinthians 10:13). Always rest in His sufficient grace and unchanging nature. Then, even in the midst of tears (and fears), we can say as Job said in Job13:15,

“Though he slay me, yet will I hope in him;
    I will surely defend my ways to his face.”

God bless you. Continue to trust and sustain on Him!!

This message is published by an IT professional who works for an MNC in Madurai, India.

Stewards of God’s gift

Stewards of God’s gift

As each of you has received a gift (a particular spiritual talent, a gracious divine endowment), employ it for one another as [befits] good trustees of God’s many-sided grace [faithful stewards of the extremely diverse powers and gifts granted to Christians by unmerited favor].
1 Peter 4:10 (AMPC)

We are called to be a faithful stewards of all that has entrusted to us – stewards not only of money, but also of the diverse grace of God.

Each of us have been endowed with a gift to be employed to serve and help each other.
This awareness and the responsibility that comes with it will help us to use our gifts for God’s glory – even in the workplace.

We can still choose to use our expertise with selfish motives and for self-aggrandizement, but that is not good stewardship and does not bring glory to God.

The gifts and expertise that God has given generously should be used judiciously to serve others with humility.

Be a good manager of your God-given expertise and use it to serve others.

God-ordained Authority

God-ordained Authority

Be submissive to every human institution and authority for the sake of the Lord.
I Peter 2:13a

We are free individuals in Christ and not slaves to anyone.
But, at the same time, we are commanded to respect and honour our superiors at our workplace as they are ordained by God.

By doing so, you can silence the voice of your oppressors.
And you don’t give room for anyone to find fault in your conduct.

When you do what is pleasing in God’s sight and obey HIs word, His presence will be with you to protect you and help you find favour in the sight of your superiors.

Let’s endeavour to follow Christ’s example in everything we do, just as He submitted to the Father’s will on the cross.

God has called us to live a higher standard of living – even at our workplace.

Love Your Colleagues

Love Your Colleagues

Since by your obedience to the Truth through the [Holy] Spirit you have purified your hearts for the sincere affection of the brethren, [see that you] love one another fervently from a pure heart.
1 Peter 1: 22 (AMPC)

Not a single day goes by without any kind of collaboration with your colleagues across different teams and locations.

This gives you an opportunity to reveal the fruits of the Spirit and be a witness for Christ.

Whether you are sharing knowledge, training, handling disagreements or conflicts, giving & taking orders be conscious to flavour each interaction with love.

Always treat your co-worker with kindness, honour, and courteousness. Don’t hesitate to go the extra mile when you interact with them.The way you handle your team members and colleagues will improve the morale of the team.

Be Alert! Every working hour is an opportunity to be the salt and the light of your company.