Do not ask “Why me, God ?” rather ask “What through me, God?”

Around 7 months before my wife Susan developed a small cyst in her neck and we initially ignored it as an infection. A few months later another one came up and this time we went to the doctors and after a series of Blood tests, Ultrasound and Biopsy she was diagnosed with Stage 2 Thyroid Cancer. We just froze hearing the news and it was easily the saddest and toughest moment in our lives. Our immediate prayer was ”Why me Lord?”and why did you allow this in our life.

We were advised with the next steps which needed an extensive surgery followed by Radioactive Iodine treatment. The surgery was successful without any complications and was done by Dr.Paul M Jacob, one of the best Endocrine surgeons in the country and his wonderful team @ CMC Vellore (The best and most ethical hospital in our country). Post surgery, we were advised to be ready for a long quarantined radioactive treatment for residual removals and to check if the cancer has spread to other parts of the body. Staying in the hospital exposed us to the real needs of life looking at the suffering fellow patients who needed love, care and emotional support. Our hearts were moved seeing many suffering patients. We were asked to take the isotope body scan and be ready to get admitted for the radioactive iodine treatment. Life was really tough trying to balance work, kids and the medical process. All through this we knelt down as a family praying to Jesus for a healing miracle and also asked our close friends to support us with prayer. This week when we finally did the isotope body scan and blood tests, a Big Miracle happened.  The doctors were surprised that they could not find even a single cancerous cell in the body (not even a trace) and there was complete healing. Less than 1 percent of the cancer patients get healed without radioactive treatment and by the grace of Jesus, Susan is now officially cancer clean and a cancer survivor.

Staying through in the hospital and battling this deadly disease, Susan has a desire to help cancer patients and has started a new organization called ‘CHRISTCAN’. The word CAN taken from Cancer and the word which says: ‘I CAN do all things through Christ who strengthens me’. Christcan will specifically work with young kids who have lost either of their parents due to Cancer and also with young women cancer patients. We would have never done something like this if we had not gone through this phase of successfully battling cancer.

So the next time you have a problem, do not ask “Why me, God ? ” rather ask “What through me, God?”.  Never ever Give Up!

–  Joshua Madan, Co-Founder & CEO of Covenant Group.

(This testimony originally appeared on Joshua Madan’s Facebook page and has been republished here with his permission)


God Does Not Slumber

Heard a moaning noise, when I got my sleep disturbed at 02:40AM on 18th June 2016. What I have seen in next minute made me to scream ‘Jesus!!! Help me out’…..

I have been deputed to the US for a long-term assignment as an IT – Portfolio manager with an offshore team in India.  Usually, if I go to sleep late after finishing offshore teleconference meetings (that is the nature of working in onshore-offshore model with many IT companies), I cannot easily wake up for next 5-6 hours unless the alarm buzzes repeatedly at high pitch or my wife or son awakes me in person.

On 18th June 2016, after finishing my long day with offshore teleconference meetings till 01:30 AM, I hit my bed with a small prayer as I was completely tired.  Suddenly, I heard a moaning noise at 02:40AM, the noise was very feeble but I woke up from my sleep, disturbed.  This was totally unusual for me to wake up in the wee hours only after hour of sleep when the body is completely stripped off energy. When I woke up and rushed to see the source of the moaning noise. What I saw made me to scream ‘Jesus!!! Help me’. My wife was unconscious in the restroom with her head struck in a narrow space in a corner of the room and I could not see her face. I tried to pull her out carefully as her head was found twisted. Somehow, I pulled her head out from that narrow space and made her to lie down flat on the floor.  By sprinkling water and giving her some to drink, I got her to a conscious state and then I made her to lie on the bed. Later I got to know that, 5-7 minutes back only this had happened and God woke me up in the wee hours by sending His angel.

First miracle was : The Lord who does not slumber, made me to wake up in the wee hour at the right time to hear the very feeble moaning noise and made me to attend critical medical situation

He will not allow your foot to be moved, He who keeps you will not slumber. Behold, He who keeps Israel shall neither slumber nor sleep.  Psalms 121:3 & 4

As a basic first aid, I checked her blood pressure, it was very low in the range of 60-70 though she was taking medication for high blood pressure. She was found very weak and pale.  After 15-20 minutes of rest, I rushed to an emergency room in my locality.  As there was no doctor except some paramedics/nurses, they asked me to take her to nearest bigger hospital with all the facilities. I got admitted her in ICU at 04:00AM and all the blood tests were done. She was getting better and her blood pressure fluctuation was monitored.  After 45 min in the ICU, she wanted to use the restroom, I was helping her to walk towards the restroom and she was leaning on me.  After 2 minutes of slow walk within 15 meters, she lost her consciousness the 2nd time in my own hand and collapsed to the ground.  Bunch of nurses rushed to the spot and got her to the bed and connected her back to the monitors. What I had seen was really shocking as her blood pressure was very low in the range of 20-25.

The 2nd miracle was: my wife re-gained her blood pressure very fast from 20-25 to 60-70 in the next 20 minutes without any major medical complications.

After seeing the 2nd time recovery with blood pressure readings on the monitor, I realized the critical medical condition of my wife that she was undergoing during 1st time pass-out at home and she should have been carried only in ambulance. Thank God! It was His amazing strength that made her to come down from 1st floor to ground floor and walking up to car parking area by holding my hand.

Doctors could diagnose the problem very fast and had to undergo a treatment for with the best medication. Praise God! She was restored to normal blood pressure in the next 24 hours and was discharged from the ICU.  Within the next 2 months, she got back to normal health condition.  Amen! God is our healer and by His wounds we are healed!

Yes. Our God is our ever-present help at the time of troubles and He cares for us as our father and mother.

This is a testimony from an IT professional, who is working for a multi-national company and  resides in Houston, USA.

Back for the Better

By V.Chacko Jacob

Praise the Lord. It has been a while since I wrote something to glorify God. I thought this would be a right time to do so as I have just shifted back to Chennai from Pondicherry.

The time at Pondicherry has been a blessed ride & I just wanted to tell you how… The Bible says in 2 Timothy 3:16&17, “16 All scripture is given by inspiration of God, and is profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for correction, for instruction in righteousness:17 That the man of God may be perfect thoroughly furnished unto all good works” .

Yeah! That’s exactly what I wanted to tell you all. In Pondicherry I definitely grew in my career as I held a position only next to the top management of my company but above all, I grew in the word of God. I was in a church blessed by a young & blessed teacher of the word of God. He is 27years old, Pas.Steve Asir, the pastor of Halluejah AG Church English congregation. Through him, I was blessed to do many programs that would be the envy of many bigger churches. We did rock concerts, seminars, conferences, workshops, large scale dramas; name it, “we did it all”, for Jesus in the 3 years that I was at Pondicherry. I was also blessed to substitute for Pas.Steve in a few places as a preacher of God’s word. I just repeated in my style what he preached in the morning sermon in the afternoon/evening services. I was so blessed by the word at Pondicherry that I am writing a personal book titled “The 100 sermons by Pas.Steve Asir that touched me”

I was not only encouraged by the word, the word also yielded fruit in my life. I undertook my first overseas mission trip to Sri Lanka from Pondicherry. In my work place, where I was employed for the first 2 years in Pondicherry (until suddenly retrenched), I have left a permanent mark. Most people say till today that “Chacko came & made this factory a much safer place to work in”. Praise God, that is what we need right? As a Christian in a Corporate, our deeds have to speak loud enough to match our faith & thus glorify God.

I had to continue in Pondicherry for one more year due to my son’s educational needs. I had no job but God miraculously opened avenues for me as a freelance trainer. Every month, God gave me whatever business that I needed to lead my life as a good witness for him. In every CCF prayer bridge, my brothers prayed for my career & God answered them & me faithfully. The month, in which I was shifting to Chennai, I had my best month, 21 days of training, enough money to enable a smooth shifting back to Chennai.

Now, that I am here…. Am I back for the better?  All I know is, God knows. As I write this article, I am being considered for the post of Director – Growth & Development in a secular forum called JCI (Junior Chamber International), which is an honour (even though it’s for one of the local chapters created for trainers). I attended 2 meetings & they are considering me for this position. What did they see in me in 2 meetings? God knows. As I write this article, I am also finalizing my next job with a training company in Chennai, that’s part of one of the leading industrial houses in India. I am getting an opportunity to build a business with the backing of a strong corporate house. Had I got this opportunity 3 years ago, it would have been great. But, God knows the right time to open the right door. Maybe He felt, I had to become stronger in the Word. Maybe He wanted me to have the experience of doing different type of programs before I got this opportunity. I don’t know, God knows.

I know, it is a tough ask at times to trust God when things are not going fine, but trust me; if things are working out good for me then so will it work out for you. Just keep your faith & trust in God.

My dear friends, I just want to conclude by saying that there are times in our lives when everything seems out of our control. Don’t worry… God is in control. Even if you don’t know what you are doing, He knows what He is doing with his child … and, everything He does is always for the better. The Bible says in Proverbs 16:9, “ A man’s heart deviseth his way: but the LORD directeth his steps” . The Lord our God always directs our steps for the better, so that you may be lifted up & through your witness, He will be lifted up among all men. God Bless You.

6 years of waiting and blessing of a child from the LORD

Children are a heritage from the Lord. The fruit of the womb is His reward – Psalms 127:3

My background:

Born and raised in an orthodox Brahmin family, accepting Christ and being baptized in Him came as a shock to my family. In addition, I faced many difficulties in my job and health. As time progressed, they gradually accepted my faith and in 2006 I got married to a God-fearing woman born and raised in Christian faith.

By God’s grace, everything went fine in our marital life. We both had good jobs, traveled many places and enjoyed our lives. But there was one thing missing: the blessing of a child. Though we did not face any embarrassing situation, every wedding anniversary reminded us of our state.

Hardships faced:

Many people told us about their dreams of us being blessed with a child. I did not take it lightly, since I knew this blessing was going to take some time, and these dreams were an encouragement from the Lord. As time passed, people started questioning us and I started avoiding certain people. We too wanted to rule out the cause, and sought medical help from our doctor friend who performed many tests for my wife and me, and confirmed that a medical condition in my body reduced the chances of my wife conceiving. Hearing this news, we were shocked and we decided to trust God for the impossible.

One day I was reading Luke 1, which narrates two supernatural incidents: the birth of John the Baptist and our Lord Jesus. Both incidents speak of God‘s omnipotence in conception. We therefore based our faith on God’s power and also took medical help for conception of a child. After a couple of years, we decided to stop pursing medical treatments since nothing worked out, and depended totally on God for the miracle. During this time of grief, when my wife was much troubled, God spoke the following verses to us.

“A woman giving birth to a child has pain because her time has come; but when her baby is born she forgets the anguish because of her joy that a child is born into the world. 22 So with you: now is your time of grief, but I will see you again and you will rejoice, and no one will take away your joy.” – John 16:21-22

For there is a proper time and procedure for every matter, though a person may be weighed down by misery. – Ecclesiastes 8:6

For with God nothing will be impossible. – Luke 1:37

Isaac prayed for his wife to be pregnant. – Genesis 25:21


In 2011, I was transferred to the US. Within 3 months, my wife conceived and our joy knew no bounds. However, it was short lived for the baby did not grow properly and my wife had a miscarriage. The Lord prepared us for the loss ahead of time and my wife came out of it peacefully.

In the mid of 2012, our US visa extensions were denied and we had to return to India. God revealed to me one day that a curse of barrenness was upon my life. I prayed God to relieve me from that curse (for the Lord Jesus took all my curses at the cross), so the blessings of Abraham would be on me. God delivered me and later in September of that year, God opened door for us to return to the US. In December, God gave me a word of knowledge that the blessing of child was coming into our lives and asked me to receive it.

Promise to come:

In the last week of December, I told my wife I had a dream of her bearing a child. Once again, God had already revealed to her ahead of time that the wait was over. On January 16, 2013, the promise came true and we joyfully and hopeful prayed each day for God to sustain the baby throughout the time of pregnancy.

Complications during pregnancy:

During the 12th week, my wife had some internal infection which caused extreme pain and I rushed her to the emergency. She couldn’t take any strong medication due to pregnancy and the doctors were finding it hard to perform an operation. Miraculously, the baby was very active and the heart beat was good. The next day, a doctor from another hospital asked us to visit her. With that pain I took my wife and without an incesion, the infection was treated and the pain vanished instantly. In the midst of this, God gave us the hope nothing will prevent the birth of this child.

During the 21st week scan, the nurse observed irregular heartbeat in the baby. We committed this into the Lord’s hands. Our church prayed for the baby and the following detailed heart scan of the baby’s heart revealed no such symptoms.

The promise fulfilled:

The Lord led us all through the 9 months and on Sep 6th, 2014 my wife gave birth to a beautiful girl baby through a safe & normal labor. Our baby brought bountiful joy and laughter not only to us, but also to our family, friends and our entire church.



God answered our prayers after 6 years of marriage and made us to wait for His perfect timing. For all things work together for good to those who love God and are called of him.

We thank and praise God for remembering his promises in our lives and fulfilling them at his appointed time.


Ramana is an IT Professional who is working in US.

Mighty Work of God

Mighty Work of God
it was so that the works of God might be displayed in him – John 9:3

For long I have read psalms 91 but never have I tasted it so much as I have now. The Lord has blessed us (me and my wife) with a baby boy on Oct 27th.

Behold, children are a gift of the LORD,
The fruit of the womb is a reward. – Ps 127:3

If the labor had been normal, I will have no reason to testify the faithfulness of my Lord Jesus. However, I never wanted it to be normal, but supernatural so that I can testify and witness about His great faithfulness for He has said,

Before she was in labor, she gave birth;
Before her pain came,
She delivered a male child. – Isa 66:7

This is our 2nd child and having seen my wife during labor pains in with the 1st child, I held on to Isa 66:7.

Leading in prayer

The labor and the nature of the birth were supernatural indeed, but not how I had prayer for. The day before the labor as I started to pray for my wife, the Lord urged me to pray for Israel. So I did. As I had prayed for about an hour for Israel, the Lord reminded me about the covenant that He made with Abraham in Gen 12:3 – “I will bless those who bless you.”

Then, the next day as my wife was in labor room I was in prayer waiting eagerly outside. Then the Lord said, “Nothing is impossible with God” – Luke 1:37; and then He said, “Rejoice and be exceedingly glad” – Matt 5:12. I did not understand at that time why the Lord had said these but I did as He said.

Tense situation

Then all of the sudden my wife was transferred from the labor room to the operation theater (OT). While they took her in the stretcher she said to me “Gone, gone!” because she heard the attending doctor say to another doctor that she cannot feel the pulse of the baby. As she was in the OT, I waited eagerly. One of the two senior doctors who performed the C-section came out and informed me that my wife was fine but said that the other doctor will inform me about the baby. Tense situation! But I was quite peaceful, for the Lord said “Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.” (John 14:27).

Then after few minutes the other doctor brought the baby out. It was a very pleasant experience as I saw him exactly the way the Lord had showed him to me in a dream. Then the baby was taken immediately to NICU (Newborn Intensive Care Unit) because of the nature of his birth. While all these were going on I had very little knowledge about the same.

Cord Prolapsed

All I knew at that time was that my wife had a “cord prolapse.”  This is a very rare occurrence in labor. Statistics on cord prolapse vary, but the range is between 0.14% and 0.62% of all births, in most studies which is approximately 1 in 300 births. Why does this happen? There are many predicted reason but none has been conclusive so far. However, when it happens, oxygen and blood supplies to the fetus are diminished or cut-off and the baby must be delivered quickly. If attempts to deliver the baby promptly, fail, the fetus’ oxygen and blood supply are occluded and brain damage or death will occur.

The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy

In the natural, it is easy to blame the doctors or the hospital infrastructure or anything. But these things are not natural. It is not the will of God that people have “cord prolapse” for the scripture says in Isa 66:9 – “’Shall I bring to the time of birth, and not cause delivery?’ says the LORD. ‘Shall I who cause delivery shut upthe womb?’ says your God.”

The night before the delivery, my dad had a dream from The Lord. He saw a thief trying to break in to our house but was pushed out of the door and the door shut before him. It is exactly as Jesus said in John 10:10 – “The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I came that they may have life, and have it abundantly.”

This is our 2nd child out of 3 pregnancies. During the time of my wife’s 1st pregnancy, The Lord was directing me into spending time in prayer. But often I disobeyed. In the 2nd month of the pregnancy my wife had a miscarriage. We were terribly broken in our hearts. But the Lord clearly told me that because of my disobedience He could not protect me when the devil comes to steal, kill and destroy. One thing that I understood is that as much as the Lord loves me, the devil hates me and would like to kill me, if not for the Lord who is my refuge and my fortress and a shield and bulwark. “For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the powers, against the world forces of this darkness, against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly places.”  (Eph 6:12)

The birth

But after everything was over, on the day my wife and baby were discharged from the hospital the doctor told us what had taken place. She said, “It was a stillbirth” and then she started to glorify God for He had raised the child from the dead.

The baby was born dead but came back to life after few minutes. The hospital kept him in NICU to see if he was normal or was there any brain damage. But after 4 days they returned the baby saying, “He is completely normal.”

How great is the faithfulness of our Lord Jesus Christ for He has said,
“When the enemy comes in like a flood, The Spirit of the LORD will lift up a standard against him” – Isa 59:19;
“No weapon that is formed against you will prosper” – Isa 54:17;
“Fear not, for you will not be put to shame” – Isa 54:4

Stillbirths’ Statistics

India has highest number of stillbirths, an average of 1,680 babies were born dead every day between 1995 and 2009 in India, says Lancet study.

Psalms 91:7 says, “A thousand may fall at your side and ten thousand at your right hand, but it shall not approach you.” I am very thankful to God for His promise and His faithfulness in keeping it to me but on the other hand I am also convinced that God does not want thousands and ten thousands to fall at the snares of the devil.

By Allyn Samuel